The Final Days of Pregnancy

As I’m laying here in bed feeling mild cramping sensations for over an hour, and just now the first big surge, I’m thinking about how much our lives will soon be changing.

I am so anxious, but excited to be giving birth soon. I’ve studied a lot to help eliminate fears from my first birth experience. I have come such a long way mentally these last nine months.

Today I’m 38w5d. My midwife suspects this little one will arrive early. I’ve already been dilating in the last 2 1/2 weeks. I’ve had so much practice labor that I’m making myself crazy with wondering “is this finally it?!” Continue reading “The Final Days of Pregnancy”

The Final Days of Pregnancy

The Birth of Fox

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As I am preparing for the birth of Bear I have had several things on my list of things to do in order to mentally prepare for the natural delivery I want. One of these things is to clear my mind of my rather disturbing first birth experience.

I have a brain injury which alters my memories and makes me remember things in the wrong order and such so I will do my best to write what I remember. I never really wrote down anything from his birth so I’ll just give this my best shot. Continue reading “The Birth of Fox”

The Birth of Fox

Pregnancy Nightmares

I cannot say enough how much I LOATH nightmares, and dreams in general, while pregnant. They are the most realistic and terrifying of all nightmares. And I would know! I’ve been on many medications where nightmares were a side effect so I’ve dealt with this a lot more than I’d like to admit. The pregnancy ones are certainly the worst.

I am journalling this to get it off my mind. I’ve had some super realistic dreams the last few months that made me wake up in fear. These dreams are about the birth of this child. I keep having dreams about this baby being born so quick that we don’t make it to the hospital (where my midwife is). And dreams about the baby not breathing… Or the baby getting stuck (which is what happened with Fox). Terrifying stuff. Continue reading “Pregnancy Nightmares”

Pregnancy Nightmares