Over the last year or so I’ve noticed a pattern of how the clothes I’m wearing have a major roll in my mood. So, because of this, I’ve gotten rid of or given away many clothes that I just didn’t like myself in anymore. Continue reading “Get Dressed!”
Lately its been a struggle to love my body. Its been at least three years since I was able to look in the mirror and feel positive about what I was seeing reflected back. I think I’ve been hung up on my “old” body. Pre-marriage, pre-kids. No one tells you how much having babies changes your body. No one tells you about the crazy stretch marks, the wrinkles that came faster than you expected. I’m 25 this year. I never saw myself looking like this. And in the last year especially its been difficult to look at myself and see a positive reflection. My heart longs for my “old” body, for my fit abs, my in shape calves, smaller boobs (yes, I said smaller… you have no idea how much breastfeeding changes the shape of your boobs and I’m not complaining at all because its absolutely worth that sacrifice, this was just not an area I needed larger to begin with lol). My diet has improved greatly in the last year. More recently I’ve put effort into walking, yoga and aerobics although I’m sure I could spend more time with these things. I have so many other hobbies… Everything in balance.
As I’m laying here in bed feeling mild cramping sensations for over an hour, and just now the first big surge, I’m thinking about how much our lives will soon be changing.
I am so anxious, but excited to be giving birth soon. I’ve studied a lot to help eliminate fears from my first birth experience. I have come such a long way mentally these last nine months.
Today I’m 38w5d. My midwife suspects this little one will arrive early. I’ve already been dilating in the last 2 1/2 weeks. I’ve had so much practice labor that I’m making myself crazy with wondering “is this finally it?!” Continue reading “The Final Days of Pregnancy”
About halfway through this pregnancy with Bear I knew I did not want to have another baby shower. I’d had one with Fox and was given many nice things, which I kept as he outgrew them because I thought one day we would have another baby and I wanted to reuse those items.
Less than a month ago I was looking online for an alternative to a baby shower and came across the idea of a Blessingway. I was in love! I’d heard of them in my mama circles but really didn’t know what they were. Continue reading “My Blessingway”
(Photo via Pinterest)
As I am preparing for the birth of Bear I have had several things on my list of things to do in order to mentally prepare for the natural delivery I want. One of these things is to clear my mind of my rather disturbing first birth experience.
I have a brain injury which alters my memories and makes me remember things in the wrong order and such so I will do my best to write what I remember. I never really wrote down anything from his birth so I’ll just give this my best shot. Continue reading “The Birth of Fox”